Am...I late?

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Nowadays,
Child,
Doesnt like Nature anymore,
Doesnt want to bear hardships,
Doesnt want to pay,
Doesnt want to move,
All of them,
Only Study stuDy and Study....
Join Society?
Only will choose the most freely one...
Live meaningless life...
Haiz...
Whatever...
I cant threat them ,
Im not god...
So i only hope i can plan a "thing" for them let they can more unity...
Im weak in them,
Cant join their conversation,
Always Alone,
But I still at there,
Why?
WHy?
Why?
I asked myself repeatedly ...
Answer only one...
I really dont want see it will disband one day....
Sad...Useless...
My capacity...weak...
Im too weak to change all ...
Now,
Im hesitation...
Im confuse ...
AM I TOO LATE?
On that moment,
Someone tells me,
you are not too late unless you doesnt will to learn...
It gave me hope again...
And despair again...
Time can forgot anything,change anything...
Im really afraid...
Next year,
How many will left?
Why they all gone for nothing,
Stay for annoying...
Where is their heart?
Is it Play more important than anything?
Is it Give a Fake Hope is really fun?
Is it academic more important than anything?
Why they cant pay a little?...a little is enough...
Maybe is my fault at all...
Didnt expect so much,
Didnt use all nicely,
Didnt plan all good,
Didnt decided firm,
Only tantrum in the end,
Feels angry ...
Angry Myself,
Why AM i so useless...
Im useless to make them good...
I didnt stop them from quit without reason...
Didnt go to understand Why...
Im a burden at all...Isnt?
Someone tease me
Think im too foolish,
I put in many times and soul in it...
But i willing to do so...
But still nothing any result can change the situation...
Im confuse again...
Am i too late?
I plan i need to upgrade myself,
At home,
Lazy only will show up ,
I need to go out to learn...
That is the best way for me...
But...............
Where should i go?