Holiday life---why?

hmm...i wonder...
holiday,
how to play?
dont know...no target now ==
wait...am i should focus on scouts now?
gosh...== please dont always scouts...
but this fews days,
i try to forget it
but...cant
although watch many movie at home or ply computer...even i play dota==[not dota is TD]
still...lay on bed...read manga--"
then sleep...
really [razy ...
these fews day i dreamt
weird dream
scouts....
still cant left on my mind
why?
last day on school...SPM duty...
bring my friends go plaza rakyat and pavillion,
give up to know about the logbook for king scouts,
why?
Am i to kind?
I play with my friends,
try to forget scouts,
why?
why i try to forget scout?
dont know
im kinda numb ...as i really dont know what to do to help them
organize a trip?
yeah...i still remember this...
but
my knowledge too less
dont know how to start,how to do?
who can tell me?
but
i dont want always find people help
I...really bad girl
love but hate
too furious
holiday
dont know how ...nothing to do....my mind is empty...
I lost contact about scouts...dont know what they plan
dont know what can i do....
confuse
my ambition
forgot...chance fly away already
mind ..full of scouts
holiday ...still so
why?
Tomorrow
is their exam starts
wish them luck ....